Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I have so much to write, so much to say. But until I can:
1. Clean my house
2. Get into a peaceful homeschooling rhythm
3. Put a dent in some of the looming MAS projects hanging over my head
4. Help keep growmama.com alive and breathing
I will have to keep my little sparrow blog, the final frontier of freedom and creativity in my life, on the back burner. *sniff* Every time I post something, put a comment up on facebook, or send a casual reflection out on a MAS list, I get at least three people emailing or calling me, "How's it going with project x?" Translation: What are you doing writing/facebooking/contemplating when you're supposed to be working, SLAVE?
Actually, my masters are really very kind. And I work because I want to and I'm in a life stage that is by nature unavoidably chaotic. But I know one thing about myself, I NEED an outlet to thrive and give more of myself. Why do I feel guilty about it, then? Why does writing here feel like sneaking a Heath Bar when I'm supposed to be dieting?
"Stand back, you hear! I HAVE A BLOG AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO USE IT!"
Otherwise, I may just decide to hide under the bedcovers and avoid all phones, emails, facebooks, public appearances, and online pizza orders: anything that would be a sign of my existence. So they don't come after me.
In the meantime, until things are a little more in order, I will post pictures and a few words here and there, to keep my few and beloved readers coming back occasionally. Just nothing deep for a while, assuming anything here was ever deep.
P.S. I just spent 15 minutes trying to get rid of the border on my picture and failed. When I could have been ironing or editing. Whaddya say to that?!
Posted by UmIman at 12:36 PM